Thankful

I am so thankful this year. Loc makes me so happy and really tries everything to make me happy. I love him. I am so touched he came over for thanksgiving and really tried to get my mom out of her shell. I am so in love with him.

Thinking Like Pooh

I just read my positivity blog email and it reminds me to think a bit more like Pooh, and not like a piglet. Right now, I am like a piglet. I look for challenges and seem brave, but I am so negative and self-doubtful. I need to appreciate the little things in life so I will start tonight by listing out 5 things in my life that I appreciate =)

The 5 things I am grateful are...

1. a loving family

2. having a bf who loves me for me =)

3. a school that has supportive coworkers

4. having money in my savings

5. Living in a clean apartment

Besides appreciating things, I need to find some time to do NOTHING.

I need to keep conversations positive and simple.

Be proactive and take the lead.

So on October 1st, I finally met Loc's parents, and I am so happy I finally did. I love them. They are such a cute couple. And I was so scared for nothing. =)

A Few Worries

In the last entry, I talked about how I am so in love. Indeed I am. I love this dude so much I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He makes me happy.

However, what worries me is his financial situation. It has been becoming more apparent. This year has been a rough year for him financially. He has been on and off jobs so much this year and has debt from his last startup, that he had to borrow money from me. There were periods where he did not pay 2 months rent and could have been evicted from his apartment. I don't know how he has kept his sanity through this. Life has been tough, and he is still out of the trenches yet.

Now his financial situation cuts into our future. I know he really loves me and I really love him. I want to get engaged, married, and have children really soon. I mean really soon, but his financial situation is not helping him. He can't even support himself now. Sigh. I don't know how much longer I can wait. I'm getting anxious, and my parents are getting anxious too.

I was supposed to meet his parents in June, but due to money not panning out my meeting with them has been postponed. He postponed it to August, but now it's postponed again. He got laid off from his job again and starting another one...

Vietnam

I just went on a trip to Vietnam with my dad. It was a good experience. 3 weeks. long, but worthwhile. I finally had some quality time with my dad.

Love...so exciting and new. =)

Oh my it has been almost a year, and so much has changed. I am so happy despite some things. Things are really going places. My most recent change is that this fall, I have a fresh start at a new school. Now onto the biggest change....dun dun dun...I am in love. I am so in love. In the last entry I wrote almost a year ago, I was meeting new people, and I fell in love with one of them. I never thought it could happen, but it did. I fell head over heels for the Vietnamese guy, and the past 9 months have been amazing! Thinking of him puts an automatic smile on my face. He makes me so happy. I love everything about him. He is funny, ambitious, hardworking, loves eating and cooking, family oriented, good-hearted, adventurous, thoughtful, romantic...I couldn't ask for any better guy. I am sooooooo in love with him.

Recap of Summer

Things with Danny really fizzled out. I just had enough of him, and gained the strength to cut ties with him at the end of April. Being single since then has been so hard. As I watch HGTV, and see couples buying their first homes and see couples out walking around the city, I get a bit jealous. I want that. I want someone to love and I want that exhilarating feeling of love. I want someone that makes me happy and feel like I am floating on cloud 9. I want to move to that next stage of marriage and sharing a life with someone.

So when summer started, I was anxious to get out and do things in the city. I know I have to put myself out there more. I need to meet more people. I need to be courageous and "unjudging".

However, summer started off slow. After school was over, I had to deal with moving my stuff out and putting my stuff in storage because I did not have a place to live yet. I stayed at my friend Danielle's and then went home for a week, and then came back to live at Danielle's. Living at Danielle's was boring. I felt trapped because she was in Jersey and I had to rely on her to get to NYC.

After all the trouble and hardships at the beginning of July, the end of July and the month of August have been great! I finally feel like I'm living. I'm finally meeting new people. I joined some meetups and actually went to the events.

The first dude of the summer is a French chef at a 4 star restaurant in NYC. He is Chinese, a bit squinty eyed and not that tall. He loves to eat and cook food. I could talk about food with him for a long time. I am awaiting for him to cook for me. He is a year younger and does not seem that mature intellectually. He seems to be only into food. It will be interesting to meet him and go out.

2nd dude that I have started talking to is a Vietnamese dude whom I met at the Viet meetup. He is a fashion designer. I believe he is french descent. He looks very much like Brian, but taller. He seems like a major risktaker and go getter. I like that he seems ambitious. He likes to eat too, and we can eat durian together. He seems fun. My one apprehension is that he can be intimidating.

3rd dude I just met last nite. Thinking about him, makes me smile, yet at the same time scared. He is African American, particularly West Indian. He is rather good looking and clean cut. I have an attraction towards him, but I feel like what I am feeling is lust or I feel exhilerated because he's different. I never dated a non-Asian. A non-Asian had never expressed interest in me, and he really likes me and thinks I am beautiful. It will probably not work out because I don't think we could connect intellectually. The next few weeks will probably be fun.