What makes me SWOON

Guy...

• slowly undresses me and kisses me from neck down
• buying me a bouquet of mix flowers out of the blue
• cooks dinner and can look up recipes and cook gourmet meals
  
• is clean cut. He worries about what he wears with me
• who reads and has conversations about what he reads with me
• who is organized and tidy
• kisses on the forehead
  

Future Teaching Thoughts

YEsterday was the first day of open market. Unfortunately, I did not find any schools in my search. However, I am not too worried yet. It's still early. I am looking for a new job. My job is not too bad, but I could do better. I imagine my life better than this. I would be happy teaching elementary school, but if I must, I would be willing to teach middle school science again.

I've been thinking a lot about the future or how I would deal with new kids. The idea of starting off fresh with new kids thrills me. One thing, I hate about my current situation is that I loop with my kids. My mistakes continually stay with me.

Before I forget, I want to share that my first week of school with middle school students must be different. I will approach it differently. I need to warn students how miserable their lives would be if they don't cooperate. Tell them that I will call all the time, not call and one day call, or even make home visits. I would have the kids take a true or false test the 2nd day over my introduction, have the kids take another test on directions the third day, and have another test over prior knowledge on the fourth day. I need to scare these kids.

Happiness is not so much in having as sharing. We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give. -Norman Macewan

Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. It means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections. -unknown

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Right now, I am trying my best to look beyond the imperfections in my life. I am finally becoming thankful for what I have. Life is good.

I have a loving boyfriend. All the gripes I had about him can be changed through time. The most important part is that he cares for me. I definitely know he cares for me. He isn't perfect, but he is good for me right now. There is no need to worry about how he is years from now. All I know is that today, he is right behind me.

I have a loving and healthy family. They are not poor. They have shelter and are in good health. They are okay without me and are getting by happily.

I am thankful I have a job. I have kids that make me frustrated, but for the most part, I love them. They of course will always judge and think I am their enemy, but that is a-okay with me.

I am thankful my health is good. I do not have any major illnesses.

I am thankful that I have a few people I can count on. I at least have people I can count on and claim as friends. I am thankful that they think of me.

Before this, I had stressed myself out so much because of my own thoughts. All the stress I created on myself was unnecessary. I hope I don't fall in this black hole again. I have awakened again, and I am refreshed. I am all smiles now before bed. Gnite.