So when summer started, I was anxious to get out and do things in the city. I know I have to put myself out there more. I need to meet more people. I need to be courageous and "unjudging".
However, summer started off slow. After school was over, I had to deal with moving my stuff out and putting my stuff in storage because I did not have a place to live yet. I stayed at my friend Danielle's and then went home for a week, and then came back to live at Danielle's. Living at Danielle's was boring. I felt trapped because she was in Jersey and I had to rely on her to get to NYC.
After all the trouble and hardships at the beginning of July, the end of July and the month of August have been great! I finally feel like I'm living. I'm finally meeting new people. I joined some meetups and actually went to the events.
The first dude of the summer is a French chef at a 4 star restaurant in NYC. He is Chinese, a bit squinty eyed and not that tall. He loves to eat and cook food. I could talk about food with him for a long time. I am awaiting for him to cook for me. He is a year younger and does not seem that mature intellectually. He seems to be only into food. It will be interesting to meet him and go out.
2nd dude that I have started talking to is a Vietnamese dude whom I met at the Viet meetup. He is a fashion designer. I believe he is french descent. He looks very much like Brian, but taller. He seems like a major risktaker and go getter. I like that he seems ambitious. He likes to eat too, and we can eat durian together. He seems fun. My one apprehension is that he can be intimidating.
3rd dude I just met last nite. Thinking about him, makes me smile, yet at the same time scared. He is African American, particularly West Indian. He is rather good looking and clean cut. I have an attraction towards him, but I feel like what I am feeling is lust or I feel exhilerated because he's different. I never dated a non-Asian. A non-Asian had never expressed interest in me, and he really likes me and thinks I am beautiful. It will probably not work out because I don't think we could connect intellectually. The next few weeks will probably be fun.
