So last nite, I gave in and asked to see B again. After the whole crazy, stressful episode last Tuesday and awkward lack of talk on Friday with him, I realized I could still learn a lot from B. Although this time off has made me realize so many down points he has going for him, I'm still taking that risk. I'm letting my heart stay partially unguarded again. I'm opening the gate. haha.
Although, I asked to continue where we left off, we both know that things are not going to be the same. Let's see if it'll be for the best or for the worst. I know he's pretty apprehensive and will be cautious now. I, myself, don't know how to approach things either.
He did hurt me by not doing something for valentine's day and never apologized. I'm going to let it slide and attribute it to the "boys are stupid" reasoning.
After this whole ordeal, I'm realizing that
1) Semantics are extremely important, although he doesn't still
2) I'm realizing that there is more to difference in age than one expects
3) Always second guess yourself if you want to do something drastic around PMS time.
4) Dating is much more complicated than I thought.
5) I don't get boys.
6) Never get physical with guys for at least 2 months. Getting physical just makes things complicated and the emotions run so high, that we can't think straight anymore.
My question after this ordeal is...
1) How much can I tolerate of this guy? There's such a fine fine line. I like his qualifications, now let's see how his behavior is.
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